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A Senator, a Judge & Four Women in Recovery: Breaking Ireland’s Cycle of Addiction and Prison

September 5, 2025
65
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What happens when women with lived experience of addiction, prison, and recovery sit down with a former judge and a senator? In this powerful episode, Gerry Scullion brings together Senator Aubrey McCarthy, former Judge Gillian Hussey, and four remarkable women — Ruthann Barry, Bronagh McBrien, Edie Donohoe, and Jenny Harris — who have navigated Ireland’s systems of addiction, justice, and recovery.In an extraordinary twist, Judge Gillian Hussey once sentenced three of the women at the table to the Dóchas Centre, Ireland’s women’s prison.

Now, years later, they sit side by side, reflecting on that journey, the systemic barriers still in place, and the possibilities for real change.

This is a conversation about resilience, compassion, and the power of lived experience to shape a more humane justice system.

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Episode Transcript

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[00:00:00] Gerry Scullion: Hey folks, and welcome back to another episode of

[00:00:02] This is HCD.

[00:00:03] Gerry Scullion: My name is

[00:00:04] Gerry [00:00:05] Scullion

[00:00:05] Gerry Scullion: and I'm a human-centered service design practitioner based in the beautiful city of Dublin, Ireland. And [00:00:10] today on the show we've got a really special episode for you. We've done something that we've never done before.

[00:00:14] Gerry Scullion: We [00:00:15] have a six person podcast that was recorded recently live in Dublin [00:00:20] city center in house for anyone who's from Dublin. And it's something like we've never done before. You just said, [00:00:25] 'cause you're gonna hear from a group of remarkable people whose lives have been shaped by addiction, [00:00:30] crime, prison, and recovery.

[00:00:32] Gerry Scullion: Now, some of the stories you'll hear involve crimes that [00:00:35] left lasting pain from victims and families. And we want to be absolutely clear before you [00:00:40] listen to this episode that we do not condone crimes in any shape or form, but what we are [00:00:45] exploring here is the possibility of change of rehabilitation and of second and [00:00:50] even third and fourth chances in life.

[00:00:52] Gerry Scullion: It's a remarkable one. And joining in this [00:00:55] episode is Senator Aubrey McCarthy, one of the driving forces behind Tigand, [00:01:00] an organization in Ireland that provides life-changing recovery programs for people trapped in [00:01:05] cycles of addiction and homelessness. Now, sitting beside him on the episode is [00:01:10] former District Court Judge Gillian Hussey, now one of the first female [00:01:15] judges in Arnold's criminal courts.

[00:01:16] Gerry Scullion: And Judge Hussey's once sentenced one of the women [00:01:20] in, uh, at that very table that you're gonna see two prison. And yet today they sit [00:01:25] together as equals, reflecting on what compassion and justice really looks like. [00:01:30] We talk about recidivism, we talk about lots of interesting facts, and I've wanted to ask some [00:01:35] questions to a judge actually, just around what the metrics are for [00:01:40] success for judges in the criminal situations.

[00:01:42] Gerry Scullion: Now, you'll also hear from Ruthanne now a sports [00:01:45] and wellbeing coach and a strong advocate for women in the JU Justice system. He'll hear from [00:01:50] Brona who leads social inclusion with homeless communities, ed, who guides women through [00:01:55] treat treatment and recovery, and Jenny, who supports families healing alongside loved ones in [00:02:00] addiction recovery.

[00:02:01] Gerry Scullion: This is a conversation about trauma stigma and systemic [00:02:05] failings, but it's also about hope, dignity, and the extraordinary resilience of people [00:02:10] when they're given the right support and the right ecosystem. There's three key takeaways in this, okay? [00:02:15] First one is trauma. And the environment. That plays a huge role in shaping lives, [00:02:20] but connection and community and the right interventions can break cycles of addiction.

[00:02:24] Gerry Scullion: I'm gonna talk about [00:02:25] compassionate justice and how it has the power to transform outcomes. And Judge Hussey's [00:02:30] story shows just what happens when people are seen as humans First. [00:02:35] Last one that'll ask. Key takeaway from me is recovery is [00:02:40] possible. And not just surviving, but thriving, finding joy, purpose, and really [00:02:45] becoming advocates for others.

[00:02:46] Gerry Scullion: If you enjoy this episode, please do take a chance to subscribe, [00:02:50] share the episode with somebody who might benefit from hearing it and leave us a review using the link in the [00:02:55] show notes. It's one of the best ways for you to keep in touch with everything that we do. Here at this is HCD. [00:03:00] Again, a big shout out to Alan Bobak as well, who was key in setting this, uh, this [00:03:05] episode up.

[00:03:05] Gerry Scullion: It's a remarkable one. I know you're gonna enjoy it. Let's jump straight in,[00:03:10] [00:03:15]

[00:03:18] Gerry Scullion: folks. I'm delighted to have you [00:03:20] here. Um, very warm. Welcome to an episode of This is HCD. Maybe we'll start off [00:03:25] by introducing ourselves, just a short name and you know what you do and [00:03:30] we'll start with Mr. Senator Obby McCarthy.

[00:03:32] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: So my name is Aubrey and um, [00:03:35] I've. Helped set up an organization called TIG Lin many years ago with the inspiration [00:03:40] of Judge Gillian Hussy, who's beside me.

[00:03:42] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And today, uh, we're meeting up with women [00:03:45] who are advocates for people in addiction. They're peers in society, and I think I'm excited [00:03:50] about today. Yeah, absolutely. Gillian.

[00:03:52] Gillian Hussey: Uh, I'm Gillian Hussey. I was a, [00:03:55] a district court judge, one of the first women [00:04:00] judges to be sent to the criminal courts. And, uh, I [00:04:05] learned a lot.

[00:04:06] Gerry Scullion: I'm sure you did. I we learned a lot more today by, and I

[00:04:09] Gillian Hussey: [00:04:10] met a lot of these ladies. Yes. As, as, as young ladies.

[00:04:13] Gerry Scullion: That's awesome. [00:04:15]

[00:04:15] Ruthann Barry: So I am Ruth Dan. I work for Dublin City Council and [00:04:20] NEIC as a sports and wellbeing coach. And I also work with Department of [00:04:25] Justice. Probation, um, pace and in the [00:04:30] criminal justice sector.

[00:04:31] Ruthann Barry: And I'm a massive advocate for women who have went [00:04:35] through the criminal justice system system. Yes. Fantastic.

[00:04:39] Bronagh McBrien: My [00:04:40] name's Brown and McBrien. Um, I am currently working with T Glen. I was given the [00:04:45] opportunity in, at the start of last year to to, to come on board and [00:04:50] develop a role, a social inclusion role covering the South Dublin [00:04:55] Wicklow area.

[00:04:55] Bronagh McBrien: So. I've developed that role. It's up and running now, and it's [00:05:00] been such a huge benefit to the, the cohort of homeless people that I work with, the [00:05:05] hospitals, the services, anti Glen as well. Um, I am, I've [00:05:10] lived experience, so it's an area I'm very familiar with. I've worked in homeless services for many [00:05:15] years and now I have the privilege of being able to set tables like this with [00:05:20] people and make, um, more of a difference and more of an impact rather than just helping all [00:05:25] the time, you know, just to actually be a voice.

[00:05:27] Gerry Scullion: Fantastic. Yeah. Great to have your,

[00:05:29] uh, [00:05:30] yeah. My name is Edie. Um, I work in the Lighthouse. I'm the community [00:05:35] employment supervisor, but I also do assessments and care plans for women going into [00:05:40] treatment. And I run through two groups, two pre-entry groups, [00:05:45] one for the men and one for the women and them groups is to prepare them for TLE [00:05:50] in.

[00:05:50] It's giving them all the information, you know, what to expect when they go in and then see [00:05:55] where they're at. And then if they need any further support as well, it's a, it's [00:06:00] a place for them to come and, uh, feel support.

[00:06:03] Gerry Scullion: Brilliant. Great to have you, Edie. Thanks. [00:06:05]

[00:06:05] Jenny Harris: Hey, my name is Jenny. Um, I've also come through the tiging [00:06:10] program.

[00:06:10] Jenny Harris: I now work for Family Support and tiging. So what [00:06:15] that entails is I'd have the family support phone, we hold family support meetings [00:06:20] because this isn't only a journey for us, this is for families. Families need to heal as well. Yeah. [00:06:25] It's, it's a long journey and it's, it's so rewarding when you going in and sitting there meetings, you know, [00:06:30] like, and families are there and yeah, it's, it's, it's an amazing job.

[00:06:34] Jenny Harris: Like, [00:06:35] so I love what I do. Yeah, it's brilliant to have here.

[00:06:37] Gerry Scullion: Thanks. I'll start off with Alby. The first [00:06:40] question, like when we spoke there a number of weeks at Lanster house, we were talking about why this is so important [00:06:45] to have these conversations. Typically, I do a podcast and I might interview anyone, anyone of you [00:06:50] at this table, one on one, but the power of the collective is something I'm really interested in, but.[00:06:55]

[00:06:55] Gerry Scullion: I'd love to understand a little bit more why you feel that this story should be shared like this.

[00:06:59] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: I [00:07:00] grew up with addiction in my own family. I know how addiction can be like a [00:07:05] grenade. It's thrown into the family home. Everything it gets thrown apart. Your parents, your kids, [00:07:10] your education, your health, everything.

[00:07:12] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: So that inspired me to [00:07:15] help set up tingly. I met this amazing woman and, uh, we, we, we always flag each [00:07:20] other. She's an amazing sense of humor. She's a wicked sense of humor, but I will say, um, [00:07:25] judge Gillian tells everybody I met her on Tinder, and that's not true at all, but I'm not here. We're [00:07:30] going, Kathy said, but I will say what she inspired.[00:07:35]

[00:07:35] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: She spoke one night, 20 years ago when I was in Plantar Castle, and she spoke about we [00:07:40] need to do more as a society. And she had another girl with her called Jillian. Who had [00:07:45] been through the prison system, the court system, and Gillian gave her a chance and nearly mentored [00:07:50] her. And that woman today is, you know, kicking the ball outta the park.

[00:07:53] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: I thought that was [00:07:55] unusual. I approached Judge Gillian, I said, I want to help. I wanna see what we can do. And they would agree, [00:08:00] shoots for TIG Lynn. But recently, a couple of weeks ago, we all went to [00:08:05] dinner in Lester House with Judge Gillian. And um, um, I don't think [00:08:10] Jennifer was there because she hasn't got good table manners, but the rest of you were there.

[00:08:13] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And I [00:08:15] will say it showed me that these women are inspirational. So not only did it start with an [00:08:20] inspiration, but every one of the women that I met that have come to Tling that have appeared before the bench, [00:08:25] these girls are advocate peers and they are absolutely inspiring.

[00:08:29] Gerry Scullion: [00:08:30] So Jillian, your name has been mentioned the most so far in, uh, in the podcast.[00:08:35]

[00:08:35] Gerry Scullion: Talk to me a little bit more around your experience with women in addiction in this country. [00:08:40]

[00:08:40] Gillian Hussey: Well, I started off. Not with women in [00:08:45] addiction or anyone in addiction. I hadn't a clue.

[00:08:48] Gerry Scullion: Right.

[00:08:49] Gillian Hussey: [00:08:50] I remember I had a daughter of 14 when I was appointed to the bench, [00:08:55] but I was appointed to the bench on the civil side.

[00:08:59] Gillian Hussey: Okay. Ladies [00:09:00] didn't do crime and certainly ladies did not go into the criminal courts. [00:09:05] And the only recollection I have as a, as a, as a law student [00:09:10] of criminal work was it had a book with a red cover and what was [00:09:15] in that book? I haven't, to this day, I haven't a, not [00:09:20] because it wasn't going to bother me because women didn't do crime, [00:09:25] and about two years after I'm appointed on the civil side, I, [00:09:30] my president, who unfortunately is dead many, many years, because [00:09:35] I'd love to have asked him a question, which I hadn't the, the [00:09:40] intelligence to ask him at the time.

[00:09:41] Gillian Hussey: What the hell made him send me over to the bright one [00:09:45] because it was a terrible, terrible chance. Yeah. And it [00:09:50] turned out to be, as far as I'm concerned, a rip roaring success. Right. [00:09:55] Because I learned so much from the people who stood [00:10:00] before me.

[00:10:00] Gerry Scullion: And how long were you in Bridewell? How long were you? Um,

[00:10:03] Gillian Hussey: I was about, [00:10:05] about suppose about a year or so.

[00:10:08] Gillian Hussey: Okay. In the Bridewell. [00:10:10] Now I had two male colleagues and they didn't like me [00:10:15] because I didn't lock 'em all up. Lock 'em up, lock 'em up, lock [00:10:20] 'em up, was their motto. And at that stage, I, I have to tell [00:10:25] you this because it's true, but they, [00:10:30] the, the judges were just about getting used to each other and they were [00:10:35] having what they called lunches together.

[00:10:38] Gillian Hussey: And I went to [00:10:40] lunch. With these two judges twice. And [00:10:45] on both occasions, one of them, the one that was married to an ex nun, [00:10:50] starts to grop me.

[00:10:52] Gerry Scullion: Okay. Grop

[00:10:53] Gillian Hussey: me. He groped me on both [00:10:55] occasions. And I to this day have never been to a lunch with the [00:11:00] district judges or any judges ever since. Right. Because I didn't [00:11:05] think that's the place that I should be.

[00:11:07] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Jerry, can I just say, at that time [00:11:10] you were a maverick 'cause women judges weren't, weren't the norm.

[00:11:14] Gillian Hussey: Absolutely. [00:11:15] Oh, they weren't? No. Oh, they weren't the norm. But that's what women were for, to be groped and, uh, I [00:11:20] wasn't going to be grouped so I didn't go to lunch.

[00:11:22] Gerry Scullion: Yeah, I understand. So what if [00:11:25] we just look it up from the addiction perspective when we look at, you know, I guess [00:11:30] Lin's role within the justice system,

[00:11:32] Gillian Hussey: but now Lin came after that.

[00:11:33] Gillian Hussey: After that, [00:11:35] well, I, I should say that. When I went on the criminal side

[00:11:38] Gerry Scullion: mm-hmm.

[00:11:38] Gillian Hussey: I had a daughter of [00:11:40] 14, and she said to me, but come into [00:11:45] Grafton Street any Saturday and you can smell the drugs. But I said, I know nothing [00:11:50] about drugs. Anyhow, she didn't realize I had a sense of smell anyhow. [00:11:55] But,

[00:11:56] Gerry Scullion: uh, and what period would this be?

[00:11:57] Gerry Scullion: Would this be in the eighties?

[00:11:59] Gillian Hussey: It [00:12:00] would've been in in the eighties. Well, it would've been, so

[00:12:02] Gerry Scullion: a huge recession

[00:12:03] Gillian Hussey: in, it would've been 80 [00:12:05] heroin. 80, 80, 85. Yeah. Anyhow, the, [00:12:10] the two judges who didn't like me, uh, had [00:12:15] great friendship with the new judge of the district court. Mm-hmm. President of the district court.[00:12:20]

[00:12:20] Gillian Hussey: And they, and they, they persuaded the new president

[00:12:24] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:12:24] Gillian Hussey: To [00:12:25] send me outta the bride, take me outta there for heaven's sake. Take me outta there. So he, he [00:12:30] sent me up to the K Maum court, which actually was a busier court than ever. And I [00:12:35] spent the rest of my days ham, and I learned so much. And I [00:12:40] met so many people, and including this girl, Jillian, whom I met [00:12:45] actually about two weeks ago.

[00:12:46] Gillian Hussey: Lovely. And she's turned out to be a lovely, lovely, lovely girl. [00:12:50]

[00:12:50] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:12:51] Gillian Hussey: And I, [00:12:55] she, she was a total alcoholic at the age of 17.

[00:12:57] Gerry Scullion: Right.

[00:12:59] Gillian Hussey: And [00:13:00] she was always being brought into the court. And, uh, I, [00:13:05] I del I dealt with her without putting her in, in, in [00:13:10] custody. But anyhow, this particular day I was coming up to [00:13:15] my retirement, but I didn't tell her that wasn't her business.

[00:13:18] Gillian Hussey: And about three weeks from my [00:13:20] retirement, and I, uh, her, her mother came up [00:13:25] this aisle and she came up the other aisle attached to a guard that she was in custody and the [00:13:30] mother was roaring crying. Please, please do something with her. I said, okay, I will. [00:13:35] And I turned to the mother and I said, well, I'll tell you what is it for the next seven days and seven nights you'll know where she is.[00:13:40]

[00:13:40] Gillian Hussey: And I turned to Madam and I said, and madam, you will be in the women's prison for seven days and seven nights [00:13:45] and you can tell me what it's like. So seven days later she came back, she said, I'm going to change [00:13:50] my life. What? I said, it's entirely up to you. It's not up to me.

[00:13:54] Gerry Scullion: Yeah. [00:13:55] Can I ask a question like, so what role this is for everyone at the table here, like what [00:14:00] role did environment, relationships and circumstances play in the addiction [00:14:05] process?

[00:14:05] Gerry Scullion: So like I'd love your perspective on this as well, Jillian. Maybe after some other [00:14:10] people can answer. You've experienced lots of people over the years [00:14:15] that have come in front of you, but to get your perspective, but maybe I'll put it to some of, I [00:14:20] actually grew

[00:14:20] Jenny Harris: up with Jillian. Did the Jillian that you're speaking about.

[00:14:23] Jenny Harris: Yeah. And I met her a couple of weeks going and It's [00:14:25] amazing. Yeah. You know, and then she was so happy to see me coming through to Lynn 'cause we would've all [00:14:30] drank together and parted together and, yeah. So small world, you know that

[00:14:33] Gerry Scullion: other Jillian?

[00:14:34] Jenny Harris: I do. Yeah. [00:14:35]

[00:14:35] Ruthann Barry: But going back to row has a massive part to play.

[00:14:37] Ruthann Barry: Yeah. Which one? In, in your environment [00:14:40] that you grow up in. Yeah. Um, because if there is, [00:14:45] they say that addiction doesn't come through genes. It, it [00:14:50] comes through different factors of your environment and the trauma that you endure. [00:14:55] So if you're coming from, uh, an environment [00:15:00] that there is alcoholism and there is addiction and there is [00:15:05] abuse in different forms, well then there's a higher factor [00:15:10] that you might go into addiction.

[00:15:12] Ruthann Barry: Not in all cases. Yeah. Um, [00:15:15]

[00:15:16] Gerry Scullion: it can play a role.

[00:15:17] Ruthann Barry: Yeah. It can play a massive role. [00:15:20]

[00:15:20] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: What about, I often found Jerry, just from talking to different people that have done the TIG in program, [00:15:25] you're dealing with a guy, let's say, I remember one guy, he was. He was the top [00:15:30] criminal on the East coast. That's what the papers used to say.

[00:15:32] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And um, so when he came into Tig Lin, I [00:15:35] wanted to meet him and have a coffee. So we sat down and he was now 27, 28. And [00:15:40] I wanted to know what, what makes this guy so hard and so difficult to deal with? [00:15:45] And, um, his, it turns out his father had been killed in a car crash. He was six years [00:15:50] of age seven. And, um, his mother started to drink heavily.

[00:15:54] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And so she [00:15:55] then had different guys coming into the house. He was six, seven years of age. They used to come in [00:16:00] and, um, shout roar, maybe give him a clatter. And he used to wet the bed. So his mother [00:16:05] used to come home and check whether he wet the bed after the pub, after she'd come home from the pub. If he did, [00:16:10] she'd get his face and wipe it around the inside of the toilet bowl.

[00:16:13] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Okay? Now you've got a [00:16:15] kid who's 7, 8, 9, growing up with this. And what he used to do is he used to get his school [00:16:20] bag in his school uniform. And when the mom used to come into the house at 12 o'clock, one o'clock in the morning, he used to [00:16:25] get out the window and walk around the local town. Until school started in the morning.

[00:16:29] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: So now [00:16:30] you've got a kid who's 27 years of age coming into rehab, but you don't, you've got the seven, eight, [00:16:35] 9-year-old kid who's, whose environment and trauma and, um, [00:16:40] connections gave him no hope. So therefore, he ended up in addiction. And I think we've discussed this, ed [00:16:45] deals with people brona every day of the week who have come from environments whereby [00:16:50] they had never an opportunity, no direction.

[00:16:52] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And also relationships can be, can be [00:16:55] terrible if you're in, if you are a fella, he starts using gear, starts using drugs or whatever. [00:17:00] It can often be an avenue. Would that be fair to say? We are often a

[00:17:03] Ruthann Barry: product of our environment. [00:17:05] Um, like I would've came from a violent background [00:17:10] and there was alcoholism and like that when my [00:17:15] sister was killed.

[00:17:16] Ruthann Barry: It, I, I suppose the [00:17:20] dynamics of the family completely changed. Yeah. You know, we changed as people, my [00:17:25] parents changed. Of who they were. Yeah. You know, they weren't the same people [00:17:30] after my sister. It was a traumatic event. And not long after that, [00:17:35] I start, you know, experimenting in different things like tip X [00:17:40] tens in school.

[00:17:40] Ruthann Barry: Yeah. And, and, and then it progressed through the years. Yeah. But [00:17:45] it was to deal with all that pain [00:17:50] and suppress all that a hundred percent. You know what

[00:17:52] Gerry Scullion: I'm hearing though, and is from my work in Australia as [00:17:55] well, when people fall into addiction, it's, they're, they're asking for [00:18:00] help. Like they're asking for a service there to really provide that, that care.[00:18:05]

[00:18:05] Gerry Scullion: But unfortunately, the punitive nature of government, it wasn't, they don't, they're not able to [00:18:10] provide it. They just don't provide it. It's very much like you've done a crime straight into somewhere that's potentially [00:18:15] worse.

[00:18:15] Ruthann Barry: So that, that is actually. It's slightly changing at the moment. Okay. [00:18:20] Because I am part of dealing that.

[00:18:22] Ruthann Barry: So I'm someone with lived experience of the criminal justice [00:18:25] system. I also came up in front of Judge Gillian Hussey as well. What was she like? [00:18:30] Come on. See, I had heard, so sorry, Gillian to know. Sorry Gillian. [00:18:35] I had heard so much about her before I went up and I was actually terrified. [00:18:40] I was terrified.

[00:18:42] Ruthann Barry: What did you heard at that point? Oh, she had

[00:18:44] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: a huge [00:18:45] reputation

[00:18:45] Ruthann Barry: that she like was harsh. Like could be harsh, you [00:18:50] know, and, and I suppose as he said, a maverick. [00:18:55] You know, there wasn't women judges, but she did give me the opportunity to get [00:19:00] into a treatment place. There wasn't availability at that stage. So I did [00:19:05] end up getting onto a treatment program.

[00:19:08] Ruthann Barry: Was this pre t? This is pre

[00:19:09] Gerry Scullion: Tling, [00:19:10] yeah.

[00:19:10] Ruthann Barry: My methadone program. So where was that?

[00:19:12] Gerry Scullion: Who owned that program?

[00:19:13] Ruthann Barry: It was a methadone [00:19:15] program in AM Street. It's still there. It's a clinic. It's still there now. So like, um, [00:19:20] I got on that and instead of just being on heroin, [00:19:25] you know, HC that Yeah. Yeah. So that's, that was [00:19:30] me and I, I was.

[00:19:31] Ruthann Barry: Just on the methadone for a while, but then it, yeah, [00:19:35] intensified then When was that? In the early two thousands? Oh, no, that was [00:19:40]

[00:19:40] Gerry Scullion: 2000 tens.

[00:19:41] Ruthann Barry: No, I think it was like 99.

[00:19:43] Gerry Scullion: Okay. Right. Maybe. [00:19:45] So you came in front of, uh, judge Gillian Hussy. And what was the outcome of that? [00:19:50] Um, first encounter

[00:19:52] Ruthann Barry: I got, [00:19:55] um, a suspended sentence because I got onto a treatment program.

[00:19:58] Gerry Scullion: Yeah. Brilliant. [00:20:00] So, Jillian, what are the factors there that, it sounds like you were able to apply some sort of [00:20:05] compassion and think holistically to the outcome, ultimately, what [00:20:10] organizations are trying to achieve. We're trying to think of,

[00:20:12] Gillian Hussey: well, first of all, as, as Ruthanne says, [00:20:15] the amount of treatment centers was that much.[00:20:20]

[00:20:20] Gerry Scullion: Say that again.

[00:20:21] Gillian Hussey: The amount of treatment centers available at that stage. [00:20:25] They have that much Wow. And. Uh, it was, it was, it was very, very [00:20:30] sad. Yeah. Because I had no, I had no say [00:20:35] over so much because there was nobody, not think, nothing there to send them to. Yeah. [00:20:40] Uh, but I, I do remember that place on street.

[00:20:42] Gillian Hussey: I, I'd never in it and was must I, but, [00:20:45] uh, I, [00:20:50] I, I tried as best, I best I could, [00:20:55] but there was nobody, nobody there. I used to go around a couple of treatment centers [00:21:00] where they, they had resident people and. [00:21:05] I would visit there on a, on a regular, regular basis. [00:21:10] And it was actually through one of those, uh, that [00:21:15] I went down and I, I discovered that, [00:21:20] uh, they had no treatment center or men to go to [00:21:25] resident treatment center for Otto.

[00:21:27] Gillian Hussey: And it because of that, [00:21:30] that I said what I said, but I have to say I was well, well, [00:21:35] well retired. That was what, 2008 was it? Was it 2000? [00:21:40] Oh,

[00:21:40] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: no, it was before 2006. I'd say.

[00:21:41] Gillian Hussey: No. No it wasn't. No, because we

[00:21:43] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: bought TIG in 2008.

[00:21:44] Gillian Hussey: [00:21:45] Well, the, I'm sorry, but

[00:21:47] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: I, I,

[00:21:47] Gillian Hussey: I reckon it was 2010, but you said it was eight? [00:21:50] Yeah. 'cause we bought it

[00:21:51] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: to, in 2008.

[00:21:52] Gillian Hussey: Yeah. Well, I You bought it only days [00:21:55] after. Mm-hmm. I made the comment, I made with this other, with this other [00:22:00] Jillian, who I met only a couple of weeks ago, and she, she turned out to be a wonderful, wonderful girl [00:22:05] and a wonderful mother of four.

[00:22:06] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And I remember when she made that comment at the Clon Half Castle.

[00:22:09] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: [00:22:10] She, um, uh, I had, was doing a charity auction and I didn't know any of these people. I didn't [00:22:15] know much about drugs, I knew about alcohol addiction. And, um, Jillian Hasse, the judge [00:22:20] came up afterwards and she had the reputation, you know, she was tough. Roth Weiler would've been friendlier. [00:22:25] So she came up to me afterwards and she just said, um, may I tell you a young man, you're the [00:22:30] rudest person I've ever met.

[00:22:31] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Make sure you never lose that talent. And then she walks off. So I was like, is [00:22:35] that good or bad? So after that, we became the best of friends and then she started to, like, for [00:22:40] example, Edie, who's sitting here, Edie's family members who would've appeared before Judge [00:22:45] Gillian are now friends with Judge. And you

[00:22:46] know, I always remember because [00:22:50] everybody knew who Hussy was.

[00:22:51] Everybody. And I remember, 'cause I used to be up in the court [00:22:55] a few times, but I was up in Kum court and all you hear was, you are up, [00:23:00] you are up against Hussy. Oh, good luck to you. You are going down. And I remember [00:23:05] walking into the court and I seen Jillian and I looked at her and I went, oh my [00:23:10] God. She looked serious.

[00:23:12] And I said to myself, I would like to be ever up [00:23:15] against her. She, you just had that real, that real, don't mess with me. It was,

[00:23:19] Gillian Hussey: [00:23:20] it was extraordinary, the reputation that I developed. But you know, it's [00:23:25] amazing because

[00:23:26] Jenny Harris: yeah,

[00:23:26] Gillian Hussey: I don't know any other judge that has many [00:23:30] as many. Friends that has lunch or coffee or whatever.

[00:23:34] Gillian Hussey: Yeah. [00:23:35] With people who have gone through addiction centers.

[00:23:38] Gerry Scullion: Amazing. Can I ask a [00:23:40] question? Uh, Jane, something I wanted to know for a while. What, what are judges [00:23:45] measured on? Sorry, what? What are they measured on? Like what, what's, [00:23:50] what's the metric of, of a good judge in your eyes?

[00:23:52] Gillian Hussey: I have no idea. No idea. [00:23:55] Uh, I don't think I would've ever lived up to being a good judge.

[00:23:59] Gillian Hussey: Well, obviously [00:24:00] we're, we're talking

[00:24:01] Gerry Scullion: here today like some, yeah.

[00:24:02] Gillian Hussey: But it's, it's, [00:24:05] it's a strange thing. But I've met, I, I mean, I'm still [00:24:10] very friendly with people. Only about a month ago, I was driven to [00:24:15] tmore by a man.

[00:24:17] Gerry Scullion: Sorry about that. Paul. [00:24:20]

[00:24:20] Gillian Hussey: Paul, a man who appeared before me, God knows how many times [00:24:25] and. Uh, we have lunch together on a regular [00:24:30] basis.

[00:24:30] Gillian Hussey: And he had, she was

[00:24:31] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: on the Late, late show recently.

[00:24:33] Gillian Hussey: No, it wasn't on what with [00:24:35] him? What's her name? It was him. Yes. That was a long, long time ago. [00:24:40] I on something else. Oh, I was Tommy Tiernan as well. Tommy Tier caused me to write a [00:24:45] book. Uh, but, uh, I, [00:24:50] I, I had one thing that I think when I look back on it now, [00:24:55] 'cause I hadn't a clue what I was doing.

[00:24:56] Gillian Hussey: I honest the truth. Uh, I was just trying to be careful.

[00:24:59] Gerry Scullion: Yeah. [00:25:00]

[00:25:00] Gillian Hussey: Because I knew there weren't many women around and wasn't going to [00:25:05] be a good reputation for the women. But one of the things I did was [00:25:10] I accepted in my own self that I didn't know a [00:25:15] thing about crime or what, how these people got into crime or whatever.[00:25:20]

[00:25:21] Gillian Hussey: And I went, and the, the structure of the [00:25:25] probation service was different in those days. You went to what I, what I call little [00:25:30] Johnny's house. The the criminal's house. The little, little Johnny's house. The [00:25:35] probation officer went to little Johnny's house. Perfect. Now, [00:25:40] if the probation officer doesn't go to little Johnny's house, what the hell does the probation officer know [00:25:45] about Little Johnny?

[00:25:48] Gillian Hussey: Little Johnny could tell her anything or [00:25:50] him anything. Yeah. And I have, [00:25:55] I have four probation officers to this day [00:26:00] that are good, good friends of mine. We have lunch and I, I, I I, I [00:26:05] Occasionally, when we have lunch, I'll say, now this is on me. And the [00:26:10] reason I say it to them is I still owe you that debt of gratitude.

[00:26:13] Gillian Hussey: And that is for years and [00:26:15] years and years. And they in turn brought me up to [00:26:20] the governor of then governor of Mount Cho John Lonni. [00:26:25] And John Ronni again, was, was brought in, not by me, but by the [00:26:30] people who decided I was going to write a book. And they [00:26:35] launched my book with John, me and John Ronni again.

[00:26:38] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Jerry, can I just say though, [00:26:40] the way Jillian, um, sees the individual before the court? Yeah. She sees them. [00:26:45] She doesn't see an addict. Okay. She sees Jillian from Barry firm, or Jenny or Brona, and she [00:26:50] sees them as a person. And I've always been astounded by that. And it, we'd go to a [00:26:55] graduation at Tig Lynn and I'd mention that's Tommy Flaherty.

[00:26:58] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And she'd go, [00:27:00] oh, that's Timmy's son, Mary's son. She'd know all of them by [00:27:05] name. Even one guy appeared before her one day in the court and he told [00:27:10] her a wonderful excuse about how he's engaged in rehabilitation, in cool mind, blah, blah, blah, blah. [00:27:15] She knows Cool mind like the back of her hand. She was on the board of Cool Mind.

[00:27:18] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: She knew your mom was bluffing. So the [00:27:20] guy appears before he is told a total lie to the judge. She's able to say, [00:27:25] sorry, young man. Uh, you've appeared before the wrong judge today. So even the guy you've [00:27:30] mentioned who drove her to Tu Moore, he left her court one day. Um, I think he [00:27:35] stabbed a police officer, jumped into the Cammack River.

[00:27:37] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: I mean, total chaos. They're the best of friends today, [00:27:40] so it's totally an unusual territory.

[00:27:43] Ruthann Barry: See, I found a difference, [00:27:45] even though Julian was quite stern from mothers and [00:27:50] women and people in addiction, she had the compassion and empathy that other [00:27:55] judges didn't have.

[00:27:56] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Yes, yes, 100%. And to this day, last week, and this is a [00:28:00] regular occurrence, I got a text on WhatsApp from Jillian, and she's asking me, Aubrey, there's a person in [00:28:05] trouble here.

[00:28:05] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Can you do something with it? Yeah, she's 99. Um, [00:28:10] Brona. So Brona deals with these individuals on the East coast every day, so you're dealing [00:28:15] with before the courts and all the rest. So I think it's wonderful that even the likes of you, you see [00:28:20] Jillian, uh, did you know Jillian from the courts?

[00:28:22] Bronagh McBrien: Yeah. Um, I, I can, can I say [00:28:25] it's the first, you're the only judge that I've been before that I'm sitting down having a cup of tea with [00:28:30] as well, so that, that's a two-way streak, you know?

[00:28:32] Bronagh McBrien: Yeah. Um, and, and to me, I [00:28:35] think that's, that's a, it's, it's an honor and it's a privilege and I don't say that lightly. And, [00:28:40] and it's, it's a reflection of a change life as well, that yes, we're sitting at a table in house. [00:28:45] Um, I cannot, well,

[00:28:46] Gillian Hussey: it's changed my life as well. Yeah. Changed my life [00:28:50] entirely. Yeah.

[00:28:51] Gerry Scullion: What does it feel like when you're connecting with people that who had [00:28:55] experiences with in the past?

[00:28:56] Gerry Scullion: I think it's

[00:28:56] Gillian Hussey: wonderful. I just sit here with these people. [00:29:00] Now, I don't recognize them. It's a long time ago. Oh, she's

[00:29:03] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: had a lot of work done. [00:29:05]

[00:29:07] Gerry Scullion: Stick quiet. I know. He's, he's, he's an old man. Can I [00:29:10] ask a question though, about the system? Okay. So where are the failings within the existing [00:29:15] system?

[00:29:15] Gillian Hussey: Well, now the failings have come since, since my day.

[00:29:18] Gillian Hussey: I, I, I'm retired a long, long [00:29:20] time now.

[00:29:20] Gerry Scullion: But let's look at the existing system. I know you've got a, you might have as much [00:29:25] experience, but you've obviously got perspective on what's working, going on. I, one thing that's

[00:29:28] Gillian Hussey: happened since my day.

[00:29:29] Gerry Scullion: Yeah. [00:29:30]

[00:29:30] Gillian Hussey: I, I retired in two thou April, 2002. Okay. [00:29:35] And since that, at some stage, I don't know at what stage, uh, [00:29:40] the probation service doesn't go to little Johnny's house.

[00:29:43] Gerry Scullion: Okay. [00:29:45]

[00:29:45] Gillian Hussey: Which I think is a complete and utter, I, I can understand how it's happened. What does that give the system [00:29:50] though, by going to little Johnny's house?

[00:29:52] Gerry Scullion: Well,

[00:29:53] Gillian Hussey: you go to little Johnny's house, you see. [00:29:55] The conditions that Johnny Little Johnny is living in.

[00:29:57] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:29:59] Gillian Hussey: I have one, [00:30:00] one story I'll tell you.

[00:30:01] Gerry Scullion: Let's go.

[00:30:01] Gerry Scullion: Uh,

[00:30:03] Gillian Hussey: I retired and [00:30:05] I bought a new house and I went down to one of my local stores and I filled in a [00:30:10] form to get solar panels. I hadn't a clue what solar panels was. This is ago. [00:30:15] And I filled in this form and I said, look, get me somebody who will come and [00:30:20] tell me about solar panels. And a couple of days later I got a a [00:30:25] a what?

[00:30:26] Gillian Hussey: WhatsApp telling me, yes, somebody to come on Thursday, [00:30:30] tap us two. And then I got a phone call from a girl and I knew she was a young girl by her voice. And she [00:30:35] said, are you Judge Jill and Jose? I said, yes. Oh, she said, [00:30:40] my mother loved you. Her mother was from ballet farm. [00:30:45] I got my solar panels at Rock bottom Price.[00:30:50]

[00:30:51] Gillian Hussey: Then about two or three years later ago, [00:30:55] I had one of my probation officer friends text me, she's retired now. She [00:31:00] was a hell of a lot years and years younger than I was. And she said, [00:31:05] somebody wants to meet you. Yeah. Can we have lunch? I said, yes, let's have lunch. [00:31:10] Set up the arrangement. And this man of 53 came in and [00:31:15] the first thing he said to me was, my mother loved you.

[00:31:18] Gillian Hussey: He was the older, [00:31:20] much, much older brother of this young girl that had said to [00:31:25] me, my mother loved you. Uh, they were from ballet for, [00:31:30] and he had been an addict and he was actually in cool mine, and [00:31:35] I had to leave Cool Mine because of the story that Aubrey has just told you, [00:31:40] because Cool. Mine had allowed themselves, unfortunately, through all the wrong [00:31:45] reasons, lovely, lovely people, but they didn't know a huge amount.[00:31:50]

[00:31:50] Gillian Hussey: In general about addiction, [00:31:55] and a lot of the people on the board were parents and so [00:32:00] on. Mm-hmm. They, they were trying to do the right thing and be nice and so on, but unfortunately they, they [00:32:05] met somebody that told very good lies and told them very well, so

[00:32:09] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: [00:32:10] the wrong person,

[00:32:10] Gillian Hussey: and I mean, there was no other court in the country

[00:32:13] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Yeah.

[00:32:14] Gillian Hussey: That, that boy [00:32:15] could have been, that man could have been brought into by a young guard who I didn't even know who the guard was, [00:32:20] which was surprising and. I had to ring cool wine and find out, and when I [00:32:25] found out, I said, look, I'll have to leave the sport. And I left Goodman, I still have the height of respect for cool [00:32:30] wine.

[00:32:30] Gerry Scullion: So one of the questions I asked earlier about like, what is the metric, [00:32:35] you know, for a good judge, like how you, you know, kind of measured and like [00:32:40] is recidivism. Part of that conversation, like reducing re-offended? [00:32:45] Is that something that is often brought up? I never, I

[00:32:48] Gillian Hussey: never talked to any, [00:32:50] any, any of my colleagues much about what I did or what I didn't do.

[00:32:53] Gillian Hussey: Right. Mainly [00:32:55] because there were very, very few women, but they were just giving out to [00:33:00] me, you know, because they had to look 'em up, lock 'em up, lock them up. This [00:33:05] is not the way it's done.

[00:33:06] Gerry Scullion: Yeah. So like, you were ahead of your time, so like there's [00:33:10] more compassion. I know you're saying like, you got hussy, you're gonna get sent down.

[00:33:14] Gerry Scullion: That's [00:33:15] not, not what I'm hearing in the full picture. But nobody told,

[00:33:18] Gillian Hussey: nobody told me.

[00:33:19] Gerry Scullion: [00:33:20] But they were calling you hussy.

[00:33:21] Gillian Hussey: What, what, what They called me. Well, I, I, that fucking [00:33:25] bitch.

[00:33:27] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Didn't they write that? Do you know, do you know [00:33:30] Jerry? She didn't they write that in the cell underneath you?

[00:33:33] Gillian Hussey: Yeah. They wrote all sorts of [00:33:35]

[00:33:35] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: hussy is, and she was brought down to the cell to have a look at it.

[00:33:37] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: She thought it was hilarious. That's fine. [00:33:40] Did you have the same opinion as, as Ed?

[00:33:42] Bronagh McBrien: Um, yeah. Well I [00:33:45] remember, um, you, you said something there a minute ago and I just got a bit of a [00:33:50] flashback of sitting in front of you. It was, it was, it was how you said things. It was a little bit [00:33:55] terrifying. You, you were just firm.

[00:33:57] Bronagh McBrien: And, um, [00:34:00] I just got a visual of that there a minute ago. But like, even just to see [00:34:05] the table now at the moment and the reflection on how many other judges are doing this with people that have [00:34:10] been through the system. And the key part here is something you mentioned about [00:34:15] Little Johnny's house and, and what I believe is that that kind of removes the [00:34:20] bureaucracy

[00:34:20] Gillian Hussey: and it brings in a

[00:34:21] Bronagh McBrien: humanitarian approach.

[00:34:23] Bronagh McBrien: Mm-hmm. And like my, and, [00:34:25] and I experience it myself constantly because I'm so busy. I'm working in an [00:34:30] area that there's a huge need. Yeah. Not enough resources. I'm dealing with local authorities. [00:34:35] HSC hospitals resources are stretched to the max. Yeah. So [00:34:40] my phone rings and I have a number of appointments that then I'm like, oh no, who's [00:34:45] this?

[00:34:45] Bronagh McBrien: 'cause I'm so busy and. When I take the call, not [00:34:50] even going to the house, when I take the call and I hear what's going on for that person, it brings [00:34:55] me back down to that humanitarian level and it removes the getting it done. Um, and [00:35:00] even going into environments, I, I'm careful kind of the environments that went into, 'cause I'm long working, but [00:35:05] I have went into many different environments.

[00:35:06] Bronagh McBrien: I'm sure we all have. And you'd see in the lighthouse, [00:35:10] I, I was with a, I was with a client yesterday and, you know, there's a lot of [00:35:15] barriers. It's the bureaucracy trying to get this girl a bit of support. And I sat with her and [00:35:20] I seen an absolutely broken woman

[00:35:22] Gerry Scullion: mm-hmm. Who's

[00:35:23] Bronagh McBrien: really trying to hold on.

[00:35:24] Bronagh McBrien: [00:35:25] There's no substance misuse here, you know? Mm-hmm. It's, it's the system that, that she's trying [00:35:30] to kind of get support from and it's, it's now one person's fault. Yeah. [00:35:35] This is a result of people who are invested in different areas. Um, you, you [00:35:40] said earlier on something to do with, um. I can't remember. It was something to do with the [00:35:45] system.

[00:35:45] Bronagh McBrien: Yeah. And people, but it's, it's like you, you could sit at a table here, like the [00:35:50] majority of us here, we're all invested into the same. Yeah. And arbery's a, a key, um, you were talking [00:35:55] about early, earlier on about connection. Or sorry, environment. Environment. Right. So [00:36:00] the environment is huge factor to play in not only [00:36:05] substance misuse, but also recovery and even, even prison rehabilitation.

[00:36:08] Bronagh McBrien: It's environment. And [00:36:10] Tling is, is a real champion for that, especially with the space they give the people when they're coming [00:36:15] in, they have that space, says connection is the opposite of [00:36:20] addiction. So gives them that space for that connection. And then it's [00:36:25] when they leave, is it's a make or break when they leave because then it's.[00:36:30]

[00:36:30] Bronagh McBrien: The system again, the resources stay, it's the housing afterwards and, and, and [00:36:35] it's environment. So they're going back into the same environment where they started in, [00:36:40] through the system in the first place. So the barriers there really need to be looked at. I'm, I'm a [00:36:45] firm advocate for early intervention in schools.

[00:36:48] Bronagh McBrien: Absolutely. Um, [00:36:50] connection again is the opposite of addiction and even connection with the children. I [00:36:55] don, I've done a training course there a while ago about ly and the importance of, um, [00:37:00] repair and rupture of attachments. So family attachments when there's a rupture with a, [00:37:05] with a family attachment, um, and how it's important to repair that very quickly.

[00:37:09] Bronagh McBrien: But [00:37:10] nobody knows this information. Yeah, no. You know, and the system isn't

[00:37:13] Gerry Scullion: set up for it. No. It's, [00:37:15] it's

[00:37:15] Bronagh McBrien: schools now. It is, it is starting to become a conversation and, and a [00:37:20] training. And there are schools, certain, certain. How do

[00:37:22] Gerry Scullion: we amplify that?

[00:37:23] Bronagh McBrien: That's a good question. [00:37:25] This, but I think this is the staff. You a senator to

[00:37:29] Gerry Scullion: bring it.[00:37:30]

[00:37:30] Ruthann Barry: Yeah. Does anyone know any standard? But you are also saying about the recidivism.

[00:37:34] Gerry Scullion: [00:37:35] Yeah.

[00:37:35] Ruthann Barry: Um, like they have more of a punitive approach

[00:37:39] Gerry Scullion: [00:37:40] still in this country,

[00:37:41] Ruthann Barry: but it, it's starting to become, you have so many different lived [00:37:45] experience, um, advocates and consultants that are in [00:37:50] places of policy and strategy and, and different bail supports [00:37:55] that now they're starting to see that they need that rehabilitative [00:38:00] approach.

[00:38:01] Ruthann Barry: Um, so example, probation. I'm on [00:38:05] their advisory panel for creating roles for people with lived experience.

[00:38:09] Gerry Scullion: [00:38:10] That's really positive.

[00:38:10] Ruthann Barry: Now, some of probation officers, they actually go out on [00:38:15] runs. Mm-hmm.

[00:38:16] Gillian Hussey: I, I met a probation officer. I was asked, I was asked to open [00:38:20] a conference in UCD, which wasn't even built in my day.

[00:38:23] Gillian Hussey: Uh, and [00:38:25] uh, at lunchtime, this two probation officers, two ladies appeared, uh, to talk [00:38:30] to me and transpired. They came from Cork in Galway. And, [00:38:35] uh, I said, I believe the probation service has changed now since my day. And I said, [00:38:40] you know what, what happens? I said, you don't go to little Johnny's house anymore.

[00:38:44] Gillian Hussey: I [00:38:45] know one of them said to me, I know, but I cheat. And I said, how do you cheat? [00:38:50] She said, I take him out for coffee. And I said, brilliant, Bob. Absolutely brilliant. [00:38:55] I mean, can you imagine as somebody going to the probation [00:39:00] officer's, um, office Yeah. Or going out for coffee.

[00:39:04] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: I mean, [00:39:05]

[00:39:05] Gillian Hussey: the difference for child or young person, it's enormous and

[00:39:09] Ruthann Barry: [00:39:10] enormous.

[00:39:10] Ruthann Barry: So when we, I was part of the probation, um, [00:39:15] strategy, so of putting that together and in part of it, [00:39:20] it was like, how do they better support their clients? Mm. And these kind [00:39:25] of things. Go for coffee with them, meet them at their home, go for a run. [00:39:30] My probation officer that I had in prison, I actually brought her back into the Docus [00:39:35] last week and she took part in the, the color run that um, we [00:39:40] had in there with the women, like Yeah.

[00:39:41] Ruthann Barry: And I brought in a guard that [00:39:45] I know from inner city running club and I brought. Um, a lady that [00:39:50] works in Department of Justice, she's also in nurse. Yeah. And they came in [00:39:55] and they couldn't believe Yeah. You know, the, the, the [00:40:00] connection that they got for sure, because they didn't see them as probation guards or department.

[00:40:04] Ruthann Barry: They seen them as [00:40:05] human. Absolutely. It was a connection. I think that's, that's

[00:40:07] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: huge. I think that's what breaks down the barriers. [00:40:10] Ruthanne would've come to us through our homeless outreach that Jillian and myself used to [00:40:15] would do, is called a No Box. Now it's called a Lighthouse, but Ruthanne was a client.

[00:40:19] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: She was going through a very [00:40:20] dark period. Now I'm in Lester House and I see her in the corridor. She knows every minister, every [00:40:25] td. She's an advocate for something. Because of her lived experience. I

[00:40:28] Ruthann Barry: really only came down [00:40:30] 'cause I fancied you all week is see, there we go.

[00:40:33] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: But I think that's what makes the difference.

[00:40:34] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And I, and I [00:40:35] will say, and Jenny can testify for this, even our outreach, um, I used to bring Jillian [00:40:40] out, um, to the outreach. And I remember the first time I was saying, I don't know, you are the judge. You put a, probably [00:40:45] put a lot of these people away. I don't know if it's safe. And she said, no, no, I'll wear a hood or a hat.

[00:40:48] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: So we're walking down Talbot [00:40:50] Street, right? And the bus is parked around the corner on O'Connell Street. And the bus is a big [00:40:55] coach. It's got a kitchenette, got couches and the awning and everybody comes feeding about 80 [00:41:00] people a day. And next minute we're walking down Talbot Street and Jillian's there.

[00:41:03] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Next minute I hear [00:41:05] Zy and, and there's this young lad across the road about [00:41:10] 30. And he says, you put me away for four years, something like that. And she, she goes [00:41:15] over to him and she says, and was I right? And he goes. Yeah, I suppose you were, I [00:41:20] totally disarmed the situation. He came to the bus. So I think one thing [00:41:25] I have learned is there's equality.

[00:41:27] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Jillian doesn't see any difference between you, me, or [00:41:30] the fella coming to the bus and are any of the women. And we've always felt equal. And now I [00:41:35] notice these girls are carrying on what she started so that everybody's equal spread a [00:41:40] spread and, and even Jenny, you are back in your career. This girl is a phenomenal mother, a phenomenal [00:41:45] lady in her own career.

[00:41:45] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And I'm just saying she's an example that people can look to. I think the [00:41:50] eyelashes are, are fake, but everything else is real about Jenny. No, this is all I

[00:41:52] Jenny Harris: grew down myself.

[00:41:53] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Did you? Okay. Well then, [00:41:55] but, but I will say she's an example of what women need in Ireland. Yeah.

[00:41:59] Jenny Harris: Thank

[00:41:59] Gerry Scullion: you.

[00:41:59] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: [00:42:00] When we look at the

[00:42:00] Gerry Scullion: barriers that are present in the current system, [00:42:05] can you talk about your own experience, what those were when you came outta prison, [00:42:10] um, accessing support services and so forth.

[00:42:13] Gerry Scullion: I'd love to understand a little bit [00:42:15] more what that experience was like and how. You found Tling and how that all kind of intersected [00:42:20] with your own life?

[00:42:20] Jenny Harris: Well, for me, I'm just thinking, I have never been up in front of Jillian Hussey. I've, I [00:42:25] haven't been in prison. Okay. But I've been in a prisoner in my own mind.

[00:42:28] Jenny Harris: Okay. For 20 years I was in [00:42:30] addiction. So that, that was like tough enough. I may have, I was rather been in prison. Absolutely. I was sucking like a [00:42:35] back box bedroom, taking drugs, like wanting to take me life every other night of the week.

[00:42:39] Gerry Scullion: [00:42:40] Yeah.

[00:42:40] Jenny Harris: And have an amazing family. It was just a rejection piece on my part.

[00:42:44] Jenny Harris: As a [00:42:45] youngest child, I just felt put out and pushed aside, and that's how I felt. So [00:42:50] that's where I looked for love in other places and other areas, which would've been [00:42:55] drugs, man, everything that comes with that. So [00:43:00] between prison or being a prisoner in your own mind, it's the same thing to me. Yeah. So that's where my, my piece was the [00:43:05] rejection piece.

[00:43:05] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:43:06] Jenny Harris: So to come from 20 years, I'd be four years free now from alcohol and drugs and [00:43:10] it's, it's because of t in, you know, tling. But I got brought. I was [00:43:15] guided pe God put people in my path. I don't know if this would be a faith-based thing, but he did put people in my [00:43:20] path. I got brought to an amazing church, Liberty Church.

[00:43:22] Jenny Harris: They led me to TLE in tle in provided a [00:43:25] space. I only went in, I had, I worked for the HSE for 20 years. I had an amazing [00:43:30] job, which I left. I went home for 18 months. I went to a family base in B [00:43:35] Fair and which works with a lot of kids, which helps. They do the door to door, they go [00:43:40] little, they visit a little Johnny's house, they bring them for food.

[00:43:42] Jenny Harris: Like, I'm just listening around. And that's what you and all [00:43:45] yourself wrote down from being from B Fair. That's what Family Base does. Yeah. So when I was working there [00:43:50] for 18 months, I came back on the ce. When I came home to my own daughter, I came [00:43:55] straight home after completing and graduating the program.

[00:43:57] Gerry Scullion: That's amazing.

[00:43:58] Jenny Harris: I [00:44:00] noticed that the families need support and I was watching the kids and I actually look at my little daughter now and [00:44:05] she's 12 and, you know, years ago, I, I'm used to say check, you're gonna have a little one like you. And I, [00:44:10] it terrifies me. 'cause it like she has little behaviors. I'm like, oh God, she's see [00:44:15] something like me, Mia.

[00:44:15] Jenny Harris: You know? But it is what it is. But she got her playing to Lynn. She's [00:44:20] doing amazing. She's thriving. She's a amazing Irish dancing, Irish dancer are, [00:44:25] um, she's doing really well, but there will be little behaviors there. Yeah. But I continue to work on that. [00:44:30] So what I do today for myself, it helps her, you know, so if I do the [00:44:35] right thing today, she's good today, long term.

[00:44:36] Jenny Harris: Do you know? That kind of way. So I came back then to take in, and that's how I [00:44:40] came into family support.

[00:44:42] Gerry Scullion: Okay. Can I just, is anyone here with any children that maybe went [00:44:45] into prison? I'd love to understand the perspective. I did. You did? Yeah. I'd love to understand that perspective. [00:44:50] I have,

[00:44:50] Gillian Hussey: I know a girl and, and you all know her too.

[00:44:54] Gillian Hussey: I just tell that [00:44:55] like 19 87,

[00:44:56] Gerry Scullion: 19 87,

[00:44:57] Gillian Hussey: I had, and I, I was only, only [00:45:00] really in my, my learning myself and I was [00:45:05] in down over in the bridal. Because I think it was in the, no, it must have been. Must've been. Must've [00:45:10] been up and up in Kum. This young girl, she was 21 or [00:45:15] 22 in ballet far. Now I didn't, when I went on the bench [00:45:20] in 85, I didn't know where ballet far was.

[00:45:23] Gillian Hussey: So I learnt a lot between [00:45:25] that. And 1987 I do where Valley Farm it was, and this youngster, [00:45:30] young girl. Anyhow, she stood there and she was charged with having 300 [00:45:35] euros worth of cannabis, [00:45:40] and I said to the solicitor, I am not taking this case. [00:45:45] She pleaded with me. I said, I'm sorry, I am not taking this case.

[00:45:49] Gillian Hussey: It's going to the [00:45:50] circuit court if she'd get a much heavier sentence. [00:45:55] And because of that, then we had to give a remand and she had to have a [00:46:00] book of evidence served and so on. Her father then went to the solicitor and said. [00:46:05] What will happen to her when she goes to the circuit court. The solicitor said she'll get a [00:46:10] sentence.

[00:46:11] Gillian Hussey: So anyhow, she got the book of evidence [00:46:15] and when the book of evidence was served, the father took her off to England to work with him, [00:46:20] and the book of Evidence came before the Circuit Court and was no sign [00:46:25] of her anyhow, warrant issues. And she eventually finally appeared [00:46:30] and the next time I met her was in Tling.

[00:46:34] Ruthann Barry: [00:46:35] She's doing amazing.

[00:46:35] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: She's doing amazing. An amazing lady.

[00:46:37] Gillian Hussey: Yeah. An amazing, amazing [00:46:40] lady. And I have only, yesterday I sent her a text actually. And, uh, [00:46:45] we're going to hook up. She's, she's now working in Rialto. Mm-hmm. Uh, and [00:46:50] one day, one day I asked one day there was a launch in Jiggly and, [00:46:55] and. One of the premises in Gravestones and the president of Ireland and his [00:47:00] wife were there usual sunny day during COVID.

[00:47:02] Gillian Hussey: And we were outside and I was sitting at the end of the, [00:47:05] this, uh, steps. I was sitting on a chair and the president [00:47:10] and his wife came down and they stopped to talk to me. And this lady working for [00:47:15] LY took a photograph and she sent it to me on my phone [00:47:20] and she said, you are our, you are our queen.

[00:47:23] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Mm. And it shows the precedent and his [00:47:25] wife and walking by and gi and S'S sitting, and they, both of them are paying a homage to her [00:47:30] Brilliant photo.

[00:47:30] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: I think I've

[00:47:30] Gerry Scullion: seen the photo. Have you seen it? I think I've seen her online when I was researching. [00:47:35] But your question was have, have you had children? So people who've got children, um, [00:47:40] I'd love to understand their perspective. If you're dealing with men and you're also dealing with [00:47:45] women, okay. What role, how does it shape the, the [00:47:50] outcome if somebody who's in front of you has a child.

[00:47:54] Gerry Scullion: Like, what [00:47:55] does it look like, um, if they're sent to prison? Like what services are there? [00:48:00]

[00:48:00] Gillian Hussey: I didn't have that. You

[00:48:02] Gerry Scullion: didn't have the information.

[00:48:03] Gillian Hussey: So I had no information. And it's [00:48:05] really only since I've got friendly with Ruthanne on LinkedIn. [00:48:10] LinkedIn,

[00:48:10] Gerry Scullion: yeah.

[00:48:12] Gillian Hussey: I have discovered the, the fears, the [00:48:15] horrors.

[00:48:15] Gerry Scullion: Yes.

[00:48:16] Gillian Hussey: You see, I, because I didn't [00:48:20] put too many people in prison.

[00:48:21] Gerry Scullion: Okay.

[00:48:23] Gillian Hussey: And certainly women. I didn't put a lot of them in [00:48:25] prison, but I I, I might have put them in for a week or two. That mainly No, no. But [00:48:30] if you don't put people in prison, it doesn't occur to you. Mm. [00:48:35] But I never, never understood the things that she has come out with [00:48:40]

[00:48:40] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:48:40] Gillian Hussey: On LinkedIn. Yeah. And it, it, it really terrified me.

[00:48:44] Gillian Hussey: Sure. [00:48:45] How would I know if she's going into prison at 17 or 18? [00:48:50] Yeah.

[00:48:50] Gerry Scullion: You don't have the full picture. That's what

[00:48:52] Gillian Hussey: well know. But, but if I ask her, is she [00:48:55] pregnant? None of my business really, for starters. But she might [00:49:00] know or she mightn't want to share it with me.

[00:49:03] Ruthann Barry: You know? I don't think so. [00:49:05]

[00:49:05] Gillian Hussey: Can you tell us your

[00:49:06] Gerry Scullion: experience of, um,

[00:49:08] Ruthann Barry: so like, [00:49:10] something that we're massively trying to change at the moment?

[00:49:13] Ruthann Barry: Yeah. Is [00:49:15] when, I suppose criminal justice system, it, it [00:49:20] was based on a male, like men, women [00:49:25] didn't really go to prison. So everything was designed gender specific for male, it was designed for [00:49:30] men, so it wasn't designed for women. So all the [00:49:35] programs, everything is male based. Yeah. So [00:49:40] like when I went in.

[00:49:43] Ruthann Barry: Like my first night [00:49:45] in there, I solved my heart out because Who was the child at this time? I had three children. [00:49:50]

[00:49:50] Gerry Scullion: Right.

[00:49:50] Ruthann Barry: Okay. At what ages were, were those children? So, um, [00:49:55] I'm trying to think now. Um, well, one is 26 now. One's 20, one's [00:50:00] 19. And then I have a 9-year-old.

[00:50:01] Jenny Harris: I only thought I had a little girl.

[00:50:03] Ruthann Barry: No, everybody just think that, [00:50:05] but I had the three of them, so they ended up going into care with my mom.

[00:50:09] Ruthann Barry: Okay. [00:50:10] Um, but this is where the system [00:50:15] kind of fails. They don't take into account that the person loses [00:50:20] their home, the person loses, their kid told to, gets involved. They lose their [00:50:25] education, they lose the support systems that they have and, and them support systems don't come [00:50:30] in. They lose. Like, so I go into prison today.

[00:50:34] Ruthann Barry: My [00:50:35] clinic isn't contacted till. The following day, like if you are in court at a certain time, your [00:50:40] clinic, it often isn't open that morning.

[00:50:42] Gerry Scullion: Mm.

[00:50:42] Ruthann Barry: So you are getting drugs to go to court [00:50:45] with you. Like, sorry to say that. So when you were

[00:50:48] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: in custody, you with a guard, with you, you'd have drugs on you. [00:50:50]

[00:50:50] Ruthann Barry: Oh, I was well packed.

[00:50:52] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Is that the term? Wow. [00:50:55]

[00:50:55] Gerry Scullion: So what happened? Yeah. Yeah. Can we talk a little bit more again, like, it's like you don't wanna discuss it any [00:51:00] further? Completely, no. So like what was it like when you went to prison? Like what happened to your children? Like who, who [00:51:05] supported you to that? My

[00:51:06] Ruthann Barry: mom. I, I was lucky, but a lot of women don't have that.

[00:51:09] Ruthann Barry: A lot of women that [00:51:10] kids are gone into care, the Irish mammy. So yes, I was pretty lucky that my mom and her [00:51:15] husband, um, became guardians and, and full-time foster [00:51:20] carers for my Chi three children prison. I was there for nearly four [00:51:25] years. So, um,

[00:51:27] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: we, we used to go out, I used to meet her in prison. [00:51:30] No, he used

[00:51:30] Ruthann Barry: to go into Catherine Heaven.

[00:51:31] Ruthann Barry: Sorry he didn't come into

[00:51:33] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: me. [00:51:35] She used to fancy me. But what was fascinating me, Catherine, both of you, but [00:51:40] Jerry, do you know what was fascinating? I saw women who should never be in the prison [00:51:45] system being involved. Ed, just not to take the story away from you, but Ed was eight months [00:51:50] pregnant. She was living in chaos in marginalization.

[00:51:53] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: She had no TV [00:51:55] license. They arrested her and took her in, I mean, eight months pregnant.

[00:51:59] Yeah, they [00:52:00] took me in. I nearly had a heart attack and I was living in Dolphins barn at the time. [00:52:05] Right? So you had flats there, flats, hair, everybody you see, [00:52:10] knows everyone's business. And they pulled up in the car and I went, [00:52:15] and you ground the corner and I'll get in around the corner because I was so embarrassed.[00:52:20]

[00:52:20] And he said, no, you have to get in. Eight months pregnant. Yeah. I went in [00:52:25] and I got, did you baby

[00:52:26] Gerry Scullion: be in prison?

[00:52:27] No, I was only there for three hours, thank [00:52:30] God. Because it was, because it was a fire. Do you know

[00:52:33] Ruthann Barry: what I mean? You had the baby in prison? [00:52:35] I, I had, I carried my child. I got out 13 days before. [00:52:40]

[00:52:40] Gerry Scullion: And you had the baby in prison and then No, I had

[00:52:41] Ruthann Barry: her, they released me two days before.[00:52:45]

[00:52:45] Jenny Harris: See, your whole pregnancy was in prison. Yeah.

[00:52:46] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Yeah.

[00:52:48] Ruthann Barry: See,

[00:52:49] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: I remember [00:52:50] meeting in the garden in the front of

[00:52:52] Gillian Hussey: mad. I didn't You were sent in by the circuit court. [00:52:55]

[00:52:55] Ruthann Barry: Yeah, but I didn't go into prison pregnant. I [00:53:00] got out on a weekend.

[00:53:01] Gerry Scullion: Right.

[00:53:02] Ruthann Barry: And what happened

[00:53:03] Gerry Scullion: anyway, [00:53:05]

[00:53:05] Ruthann Barry: met Arby and came back pregnant. Um, and [00:53:10] came back pregnant, but I had to hide it for three months and then I bled and I had to let them [00:53:15] know.

[00:53:15] Ruthann Barry: And I got like my, I was supposed to get community [00:53:20] return. This was all taken from me. Yeah, I used to get out to hospital appointments, [00:53:25] um, on my own. That was all taken from me. I wasn't allowed the father of the child [00:53:30] be come to hospital appointments or be present for any of that. So [00:53:35] you experienced this solo, your own?

[00:53:36] Ruthann Barry: Yeah. Um, and [00:53:40] it's, you know, my family found [00:53:45] out through a newspaper article that I was pregnant, so they stopped talking to me for months. [00:53:50] So I was isolated. I hadn't got that support.

[00:53:52] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:53:53] Ruthann Barry: So I was very, very [00:53:55] broken. But luckily I had women in there who support [00:54:00] me, and I had got some of the officers who became like family that [00:54:05] I still connect with today.

[00:54:06] Ruthann Barry: Like, um,

[00:54:08] Gerry Scullion: that topic is so big. [00:54:10] Yeah. It's, it's, it's worth having a podcast almost dedicated just on that, on its own. Yeah. [00:54:15] And I'm conscious of time and I'm also conscious of the environment that we're in at the moment where lunches is gonna start [00:54:20] happening. Um, I just wanna wrap up with, with one last question for everyone at the [00:54:25] table.

[00:54:25] Gerry Scullion: Um, and that's right. Really around what message of hope would you [00:54:30] share with a woman who's listening today and feels like change is possible? What would you say to other people [00:54:35] who may be listening or, or are suffering at the moment with various forms of [00:54:40] trauma? What would you say to them should be their first step?[00:54:45]

[00:54:45] Well, for me, 'cause I do, I do your own perspective, um, [00:54:50] in, in addiction.

[00:54:51] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:54:53] I would say there's a way out [00:54:55] there is a way out. Although sometimes we get into, we feel [00:55:00] like there's no way out.

[00:55:01] Gerry Scullion: Mm-hmm.

[00:55:02] And that's why people commit suicides. They go into [00:55:05] deep depressions. It affects their mental health.

[00:55:07] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[00:55:08] Like there is a way out. Yeah. [00:55:10] And I. I love to see girls [00:55:15] changing their life around. Yeah. And even when they come into the pre-entry, you know, just giving [00:55:20] them the hope.

[00:55:21] Gerry Scullion: Where, where would you direct people to if they were in that scenario? [00:55:25] Treatment. Wanna give a shout out to any, what would you recommend?

[00:55:29] Gerry Scullion: Well

[00:55:29] [00:55:30] take, take in.

[00:55:32] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: But you work with them all, don't you see? I see. She works with [00:55:35] people at the most marginalized, vulnerable, so what you do is, is amazing. And I [00:55:40] will say that, yeah. And I think with your lived experience, you're able to see the person where they're at. Yeah. She sees the [00:55:45] woman eight months pregnant, being arrested for a TV license that's on drugs, you know?

[00:55:48] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: So.

[00:55:48] Yeah. And [00:55:50] I've been in tickling myself. Yeah. So I know the program.

[00:55:53] Gerry Scullion: I know.

[00:55:54] And [00:55:55] like when I went in, I had no idea I had stuff to work on. I thought I was just [00:56:00] going to go and get away from the drugs. I know. Yeah. But then I realized everything that, you know, that I [00:56:05] needed to work on, but, and do you know what?

[00:56:08] Even take the addiction [00:56:10] away, everybody's. Has rejection issues. Yeah. Some sort of trauma. [00:56:15] Low self worth. Yeah. Loneliness. That's depression. We just spoke about this. Everybody does. Yeah. [00:56:20]

[00:56:20] Bronagh McBrien: Anyone else? Anything else to add? Yeah, I remember, I remember, um, when [00:56:25] I first actually genuinely reached out for help, [00:56:30] help was offered to me, but I couldn't see it.

[00:56:32] Bronagh McBrien: I, I was in too much chaos. I [00:56:35] wanted it, but there was too many barriers in the way with my own kind of cognitive dissonance. It was [00:56:40] just, and I remember going into, I actually went into a faith-based, um, [00:56:45] program initially who signposted me then to kill mine. And I [00:56:50] remember the conversations that happened where we're not judging you, there's [00:56:55] no judgment.

[00:56:55] Bronagh McBrien: And that, that was key because your, your, your self [00:57:00] worth is, is just on the floor, literally. And anyone here that's. Lived [00:57:05] experience would agree. So the key here is there's no judgment [00:57:10] if you reach out. There is no judgment. And we live in an area of social [00:57:15] media and technology. If you don't know where to go, Google.

[00:57:19] Bronagh McBrien: Like it's that [00:57:20] simple Google support services in your area. Obviously pot telin enforce 'cause [00:57:25] they're the main point to call. You've got Telin, you've got K mine, you've got HSC, you've got [00:57:30] local addiction teams, you've got churches, they're support groups. But if, if you [00:57:35] don't and Google get a phone number, you can get any, I'm sure most of our [00:57:40] phone numbers you can get mine.

[00:57:41] Bronagh McBrien: No, you can't get it online, but you can get, you can get me through T Glen. I'm sure you could get through [00:57:45] to route through t It is the online,

[00:57:48] Gerry Scullion: you know,

[00:57:48] Bronagh McBrien: so [00:57:50] the information is there. If, and if you can't meet a person to give you that [00:57:55] information, Google is a good starting point, you know. And can I just, can I just,

[00:57:58] sorry, can I just say [00:58:00] if there is any barriers, um, you know the reasons why people say no, [00:58:05] I can't go into treatment because like whether it's own rent, some people even own rent.

[00:58:09] I know. Yeah. [00:58:10] Um, if they're gonna be nearly evicted, that'll stop them from going to treatment. [00:58:15] Um, that's where you come in? Yeah, they call

[00:58:18] Ruthann Barry: me then. Yeah. [00:58:20] So for me, like, don't fear having to [00:58:25] go through the pain. Don't fear having to reach out to someone. [00:58:30] And also like your past does not define you, so don't live in that past.

[00:58:34] Ruthann Barry: Yeah. [00:58:35] A lot of the times people are afraid to get to know themselves and afraid to, [00:58:40] like they use the drug as a safety blanket, as that crutch. Let that crutch [00:58:45] fall, release the blanket from your shoulders. Love it. And, you know, reach [00:58:50] out to, whether it's Tling, whether it's a HSE service or anybody, [00:58:55] like, there's a lot of different programs out there.

[00:58:58] Ruthann Barry: Don't be afraid to reach out to someone for [00:59:00] support. Yeah. You know, that's taking that first step is so important and sometimes it's [00:59:05] often the hardest. Yeah. You know, but it'll be. The best journey that you will ever [00:59:10] go on.

[00:59:11] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Yeah, definitely. Jerry, can I just say, um, if you look around the table, what, what [00:59:15] you've done today, I think you've.

[00:59:17] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: You have the tip of the iceberg here. There's [00:59:20] something special around this table. I absolutely sense it. And for too long you've seen GAA [00:59:25] players who have come out and talked about their recovery. Mostly men. Now you've got four [00:59:30] women around a table who are dynamic, one who is key in family support, [00:59:35] one who is Ed, who, who's key.

[00:59:36] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Jenny Family support. Ed works with people that are [00:59:40] marginalized, pre-entry, people that are heavily in addiction. Brona works [00:59:45] with people that are homeless on the streets. Um, um, Ruanne works with people that are in the [00:59:50] prison system. And I put it all down to the inspiration that Jillian Hussey led nearly [00:59:55] 20 years ago.

[00:59:56] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: And I think if anything, it's a legacy and uh, you girls are [01:00:00] continuing what Hussy started all those years ago. And I think it's the [01:00:05] start of something very, very special. So,

[01:00:07] Jenny Harris: can I just add something in there? 'cause I didn't get to [01:00:10] jump in there. For me, it would've been my pride. My pride wouldn't allow me to, [01:00:15] especially being from Bali Ferma.

[01:00:16] Jenny Harris: Like a lot of people would've known me as a joker and I was, I was a merry [01:00:20] drinker. But was at the end of the night where you're at home, you're on your own, you're with the bottle, and you wanna just end your life, you know? [01:00:25] But outside, nobody knew that it was all the masks. I was like hiding it. So it was [01:00:30] my pride.

[01:00:30] Jenny Harris: But I remember my dad was a dry drunk. He was sober for [01:00:35] 28 years before he passed away. And I just never, I always said, I do not want it turn into my dad did not [01:00:40] want it. And I could see myself slowly turning into that, man, do you know? And I love me, I love my [01:00:45] dad. It's my dad at the end of the day. Yeah.

[01:00:46] Jenny Harris: But he would've put a lot of fear in my life growing up as a child.

[01:00:49] Gerry Scullion: Yeah. But [01:00:50]

[01:00:50] Jenny Harris: when I had a daughter, then I was like, I don't want to put that fear into her. Yeah. And that's [01:00:55] always they my fears, you know? And I've learned through counseling. I can't put my fears on her. Yeah. You know? So. [01:01:00] For me, it was my pride and my ego.

[01:01:02] Jenny Harris: And that's coming from a woman. Do you know like, and that's [01:01:05] why I'm now going to celebrate recovery. I'm going to a step program and it took me two and a [01:01:10] half years. I've done a lot through church. But you have to come to a place in your recovery where you are ready [01:01:15] to move on to the next season. Can I,

[01:01:17] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: can I just mention just one thing?

[01:01:19] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: We [01:01:20] used a tagline many years ago and I was Tling Life Beyond Addiction. And what I [01:01:25] found is you look around here, you've got the most beautiful women who actually are fun. [01:01:30] They live lives that are exciting. Recovery is can be fun. And there [01:01:35] is life beyond addiction. And each one of you, like we have the best of last.

[01:01:38] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: We did a, ed [01:01:40] and myself did a TV show recently on RTE. We just couldn't stop laughing. We went into nuts, you [01:01:45] know, so, and I know each one of you have a dynamic personality and I think recovery [01:01:50] should be about fun, should be about life. And um, so well done. And thanks a [01:01:55] million for all of you for doing what you do.

[01:01:56] Senator Aubrey McCarthy: Can I just

[01:01:56] Ruthann Barry: add at the end of that, um. [01:02:00] That with women there's a lot more stigma and judgment attached. Yeah. That's why you [01:02:05] don't see a, as many women putting themselves out there. But today I am honored [01:02:10] and full of gratitude to sit amongst these women and Fantastic. And this [01:02:15] feminine man here. Is

[01:02:17] Gerry Scullion: it okay for people to reach out to you?

[01:02:19] Gerry Scullion: Do you like, [01:02:20] are you all on LinkedIn or Yeah, we're on people to connect with you and like follow up with the story. The numbers are on. [01:02:25] Do

[01:02:25] Jenny Harris: you know why? I was just on the main street in Valley Fair there and um, I was in the shop so I was dropping my daughter up to our [01:02:30] dancing and two girls that came to me from White Pass, which I wouldn't have had a great relationship with, [01:02:35] which would be probably triggers of my past.

[01:02:37] Gerry Scullion: Yeah.

[01:02:37] Jenny Harris: And they came and they're coming to the meeting tonight [01:02:40] because I put up, I'm not on social media, I'm only on WhatsApp. Yeah. And they came to me and they said, Jenny, we want to go [01:02:45] because you went the away, you've changed. And sometimes I don't see that I've changed, [01:02:50] but people see that you've changed and see when you go home and you've changed and nothing else has changed at home.

[01:02:54] Jenny Harris: That's the. [01:02:55] Okay. But for people to see that you've changed and it's great, I'm gonna like, [01:03:00] it will probably form a new relationship. Fantastic. And I wouldn't have spoke to this for about 20 years. So this is what [01:03:05] it's all about. It's about change and Yeah.

[01:03:07] Gerry Scullion: Absolutely. Well look, thank you for everyone for [01:03:10] coming here today.

[01:03:11] Gerry Scullion: I wrap up every episode on this inside city. We thank you. I'm still waiting on me coffee. I [01:03:15] thank people for their vulnerability. 'cause I know like it's, it is a vulnerable statement. You've been asked questions on the [01:03:20] spot and you've got cameras and you've got mics and all of this kind of stuff sitting around.

[01:03:23] Gerry Scullion: So thank you so much for allowing to, thank [01:03:25] you so much to peek into your lives. Thank

[01:03:26] Jenny Harris: you.

[01:03:27] Gerry Scullion: Absolutely. Brilliant. Thank you so much. Thank [01:03:30] [01:03:35] you.

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